Feeling A Little Down

I’m going through some things in my life right now.
I found the perfect song lyrics/music to describe a little of what’s going on.
I hope that Amy Grant is okay with posting her lyrics on-line. If not, I will remove on request.

 

ALL I EVER HAVE TO BE

When the weight of all my dreams
Is resting heavy on my head
And the thoughtful words of help and hope
Have all been nicely said
But I’m still hurting, wondering if I’ll ever be the one
I think I am
I think I am.

Then you gently re-remind me
That You’ve made me from the first
And the more I try to be the best
The more I get the worst.
And I realize the good in me
is only there because of who You are
who You are.

And all I ever have to be is what
You’ve made me
Any more or less would be a step out of Your plan
As you daily recreate me help me always keep in mind
That I only have to do what I can find
And all I ever have to be
All I have to be
All I ever have to be is what You’ve made me

When I read the lyrics from that song, my mood is lift a little because it takes the pressure and responsibility off of me and put s it on God.  Sometimes this makes me feel worse because I was raised to take responsibility for my own life and minimize reliance on others (which is total opposite of what God wants).

What I see in my life, at age 42, is almost insurmountable obstacles.  There are people I truly love that are in opposition to what needs to happen and be accomplish.  If there are any born again believers of Jesus Christ that still read this blog, I ask that you pray that God would show me the way and path I am to take.  I am a complete stopping point and directionless.  I also need peace, patience, and joy too.  Thanks in advance.

Work awaits and I need to get back to it.

-T-

Literary Frustration

I am sorry this that this is my first blog post of the year and it is a frustration that I needed to vent.

Why is it, when people self-publish to the web, they don’t take the time and include the date the article/blog/entry/whatever was created?

This is becoming increasingly frustrating when doing research. That is one reason I like blog sites like wordpress, myopera, blogger.com, etc. They automically will post the time and date after the article is published. If I repost something, or update the information, I try to post the original’s publication date in the body of the article.

Maybe I’m just being too picky, but I’ve gone through schooling that drilled into us the importance of punctuation, grammer, and completeness of our work. Not only for effective communication, but also as a reflection of our education.

Yes I make mistakes, but I’ve seen a huge increase in bad (as in spelling, not content per se) literature. So if you see errors in my postings, let me know. If you post articles, double check your work. It will cut down on a lot of frustration.

Merry Christmas

To all my friends and family: Merry Christmas!

New Page Template

I hope you all like the new blog template I’m using from WordPress.
It took a while, but I finally found the one with the color scheme that I enjoy the most.

Kids are back in school, and the holiday approaches.  Nothing serious planned but to relax.

I plan on another blog this week about upcoming events so stay tuned.

-T

No Job in Kentucky

Received a job rejection letter from NKARS.  I was really hoping to be working for them, but I guess at this time it is not to be.  Maybe down the road a position in the IT department will open.  I am disappointed, though.

March Update

Voted in the primaries today. Finally decided on who to vote for, even though I know hardly anything about them. I plan on learning more by the time the election rolls around at the end of the year. I may end up not voting for any of them as my worldview is beginning to change a little and things of this world take on less meaning compared to the realm of the eternal. I am also meditating on a few things I may or may not blog about in the future regarding voting and Christianity.

Earlier today I had to pick up Mary because she picked up a cold somewhre. She was running a temp of 101. Nobody was available at Carrie’s work to pick her up, so I took off work 1.5hrs early without pay. Just more incentive to find something better in Northern Kentucky.

Made some progress with the downstairs cleanup. Organizing can take a long time. Yet another item to blog about.

Getting bored ready my boring blog? Check out this guy named Greg Lehay. I came across on the internet while looking for Unix/Linux information: http://www.lemis.com/grog I enjoy his posts quite a bit and recommend his site.

TTFN

One holiday, Thanksgiving, and one to go in 2007.

I have been meaning to do a post for a while.  I have quite a bit to say, but every time I log into to make a post, it all leaves my mind and I feel a little overwhelmed. How can I not sound like I’m always complaining, but at the same time use this media as a way to de-stress?

I’ve debated about shutting down the blogs and removing all the materials.  Just as I’m about ready to do so, I don’t.  I have a friend in Northern Kentucky who is doing podcasts and is getting ready January 1, 2008 to do so full time as a career.  I thought maybe I was being drawn in a similar direction.  I was interacting with my friend and the podcast community,  my interested were starting to change and it just seemed natural to go that way.

Over the coarse of several months, I’ve devastated to the  point I am taking things day by day.  I haven’t been able to plan for the future because whenever we do, then something bad happens.  Cars are breaking down or getting garnishments placed against them.   Money is scarce because of the gas prices and increased energy costs coming this year.

We are, however, still moving forward with moving back to the Northern Kentucky area.  There is nothing left for us in Columbus.  The kids will adjust quickly since they’re young and we will be closer to family.  All it will take is a new job to pop into my life and it will be settled.

For a small update for what few readers I have: I’m not exeriencing any more Paxil withdrawal symptoms.  I have stopped at 10mg and will stay there for a while before attempting to decrease again.  The car (Carrie’s) is still running fine after getting the gas pump fixed.  My car is still sitting in the parking lot.  After the garnishment concludes (late 2008 early 2009) I can take it to a junk yard for scrap and start all over again.

Well, there’s an update for you.  It may be a while again before I post again, if ever.  Don’t be surprised if  you look someday and my blogs are gone.

September Update

I can’t believe it’s been a month without an update. Sorry about that. I thought I would catch everyone that reads this blog (not many) up on what’s been happening and how the car situation went.

A co-worker of Carrie has a friend that works on cars on the side and so he came over and took a look at it. Determined it was the fuel pump that was at fault. So when we got the money together, we had the guy come over and replace it while it was still in the parking lot at the townhouse. I was hesitant to allow the gentleman to perform the work as the temperatures at that time were in the high 90s. He is an older person too, so I was worried. He insisted and only required a glass of water every 30 minutes or so. Long story short, it fixed the problem and the car has ran fine ever since. With fixing the alternator. having the tensioner on properly, and replacing the fuel pump, the car runs almost like new. We even have the passing gear back.

I noticed I had written  the above, but never posted it. So enjoy. Hope to have another post soon.

New Theme

I finally settled on a new theme for this site.  I tried out no less than 10 of the default themes.  I had seen this particular theme on different site and liked it a lot.  Since I’m still learning WordPress, I haven’t figured out how to post the blogroll.  It’s probably very simple, but I haven’t taken the time to find it.

Considering another OS switch

When I wen from Windows to Linux.  I though it was the end all to be all.  The better part of tonight I have been reading about another OS, similar to Linux, but is supposed to be faster and more reliable.  I’ve even considered going back to Windows XP.  Why?

With Windows XP, there are a lot of applications that are free.  I really enjoy the way that XP installs apps.
All you do is download the file, double click, and away you go. Windows does it all.  On the flip side,
I have spent 3 days trying to get Flash up and running.  It shouldn’t be that hard!

I may have the same problem with the other OS I’m thinking about ”FreeBSD”.  Who knows.
Do you have any experience with this OS?  Please post!